I have been planning for as long as I can remember. I know what I want to be and I know the things that matter to me. I have always known that I was going to go to college. For quite some time I have known that college would be followed by seminary. I feel that God wants me to be a servant to his people and his church. I know all of that.
I have always known that I want to be kind, I want to be strong and love fiercely like my mother, I want to be smart and helpful like my father. I want to say how I feel like my sister. I want to be brave like my brother. I have always wanted to make the world a better place and be the best friend I can be to those I love.
I feel lucky to know the things I want and the person I aim to be. My life has been shaped by the creator and those around me, and here I find myself at a precipice looking out over the expanse of my future as I start my senior year of college. I have choices to make. I feel like I'm going off script. I have started wondering things like, "what will my future look like?" "What talents do I have to serve God and his people?" "Where should I go from here?" I always thought uncertainty was terrifying, but I have started to see that it's actually really exciting. I GET to make these decisions.
Curve balls have become a welcome guest, and at this point in my life, where things seem to be full of possibility, the thing I have been praying for finally walked in from stage left. I know I mixed metaphors a lot, but I really feel like anything could happen right now. That used to scare me, but now I am only excited.
And because I have been slacking lately on my music, here you are, my few readers:
"Murder in the City"- The Avett Brothers
"Famous Flower of Manhattan"- The Avett Brothers
"Super Bass"- Nicki Minaj
"Every Teardrop is a Waterfall"-Coldplay
"Sister Rosetta"-Noisettes
Be happy. There's a plan in the works.
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